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The guard


To or to not let your guard down? 
A true dilemma.

If you're someone who always gives an 100% you'll understand this dilemma.

Only you, and maybe a few people you've trusted enough with access know this - that you're either in or out. There's no middle ground.

But there's the period of sitting on the fence- you don't want out but you have no idea what the inside looks like. 
Should you be committed or not? 

You like a little certainty. But life is not certain. Life is a little miserable for the good people who expect everyone to be like them. Do you then walk around suspicious of everything? What misery!

At this juncture, I wish Adam and Eve did not eat the forbidden fruit. Maybe we'll wouldn't have to make this defining life choices. But they did, so back to the discourse.

How do you know when to let your guard down and for whom? 
Maybe we'll never really know. Maybe we'll have to grow through life with the good and ugly. 

If don't let your guard down, you'll miss out on the good. And the good will misunderstand you.

To be continued...

 My mind cannot fully express this dilemma.


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