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INSIDE OUT

© Angie Flores
Outside lives a girl with a smile that will
brighten
up the room,
yet inside hides a girl with a frown full of
despair.
Outside lives a girl with eyes of joy that
brings
you to ease,
yet inside hides a girl shedding tears of
sadness.
Outside lives a girl with a beautiful laugh
that’s
contagious,
yet inside hides a girl screaming her lungs
out in
unwanted anger.
Outside lives a girl with the personality
everyone
envies,
yet inside hides a girl full of insecurities and
shame.
Outside lives a girl who is fearless and tough,
yet inside hides a weak girl who lives in fear.
Outside lives a girl full of life,
yet inside hides a girl full of pain, wanting to
die.
Outside lives a girl with a perfect image,
yet inside hides a girl with regrets and
mistakes.
Outside lives a girl of innocence,
yet inside hides a girl with tremendous guilt.
Outside lives a girl with goals and aspirations,
yet inside lives a girl lost in confusion.
What you see on the outside is my personal
disguise,
What hides underneath you can’t even begin
to
imagine.

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